Are You Doing What You Expected To Be Doing In Life?

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Are you where you want to be in your life?  Are you doing what you thought you would be doing in life?

If you are not where you thought you would be, where you planned to be, what happened?  Why not?

Are you happy with where you are in life?  Or are you longing to try a different path?

Myself, when I saw this question, I had to sit down because it hit me that yes, I am where I want to be in life.  Yes, there are plenty of things I want to change, do differently, so on and so forth, but when I stop and listen to my heart, yes, this is where I want to be…yes, I am doing what I want to be doing—yes, there are plenty of things I would like to be doing in addition to what I do now.  Overall, however, I am happy.

It took long enough to get to this point.  I spent so many years wishing and praying and working…and here I am.  Not long ago, I had to sit down and think about … I am here.  This is my life.  What else do I want to do with myself?  Especially as my older two children are so close to adulthood (19 and 17 years old respectively) …our youngest is 8 years old and getting more independent (thank goodness).  I have more opportunity to do my own thing again.

Coming out of my depression (brought on by the loss of too many children/too many miscarriages)I now have all of this… stuff … that I had put on hold that I now need to pick up and start taking care of again…I have my business…I have my art…heck, I have a new embroidery kit that I bought last year that I still haven’t started—I love embroidery as much as I love knitting…

But…if I look at what I expected when I was a kid, when I was a teen-ager, am I where I thought I would be?  Honestly, I don’t know.  I can’t tell you.  I was never one of those people who had my entire life planned out.  I wanted to do this (write).  I wanted to do that (get married and have kids).  I wanted…things that I am no longer interested in.  I am taking classes now to further my ability to help people, and to help myself.

I never expected to not keep working on myself, to not keep learning…and that is what I do, every day.  Or at least, I strive to do so.