Mabon-tide is coming. It is the last Harvest before Winter. On the Autumnal Equinox (September 23), there is an equal amount of day and night. Each day after this, until we reach the Winter Solstice (December 21), the days grow shorter and shorter.

As this is a celebration of the last Harvest of the year, what Harvest are you celebrating? What have you sown this past year? What have you grown and nurtured this year? What have you done that you are proud of this year?

For me, it started with making that concrete decision that yes, yes, I am a writer. I am embracing that once again and I am going with that.

Now, one of the things I learned while writing every single day in August for Medium and for my blog was that as much as I love writing, I miss other aspects of my life.

What I learned was I need a happy medium between my writing, my art, my knitting, and everything else that calls to me. I am still working on the growing and nurturing part with this. I hate to keep relating everything back to my planner, but at the moment that is exactly where I am heading because that is what I need to keep up with myself and what I want to incorporate into my life.

I honestly do sit down and have to write out, time alone, light a candle and relax, cup of hot cocoa, make a pot of tea and read, and so on in my planner or else I will fight with myself to get everything else done, and nothing ever seems to get done.

I also have to work around my chronic pain and illness. Some days are better than others. The past few weeks have actually been difficult, but I do the best I can.

My Harvest, then, above and beyond anything else, is simply finding my confidence and dragging it back to the surface.

I have that knack of, if I don’t do anything for a bit, I don’t allow myself to believe I can do that thing any longer. I worry about getting back into it, doing it again, sure I will ruin whatever it is.

Although those fears do creep up, I am now able to shake my head at them and shoo them away. It has taken a few years to reach that point, but I can finally do that for myself.

And your Harvest? What is it? Let me know in the comments below.